I feel like a man without a country.and then there's this:
I'm contracted with the Skylight verbally. I'm keeping my head down and waiting for the chaos to return to order...somehow. At the same time, I'm hearing from people telling me what I should do -- "I would have resigned by now," "If things don't work out, you'll be hearing loud and clear from a LOT of people."
How do I feel? I want to resign, but I'm trying to be hopeful. I want Bill back. I want Jamie back. I want Diana back. I want, so desperately, to have our Skylight back.
Something has to give, doesn't it?
However, I cannot -- will not -- do this production without the people who believed in me more than I ever could. What's the point really? I'm just not announcing it yet.
I want you to know that there are some of us -- the ones in the shadows -- still out there 100% behind our friends. But we're so very confused, and waiting patiently for the storm to subside.
Thank you so much for what you're doing...and for listening.
Your last blog post, careful the things you say, has put a lot of people like myself, who may not have the choice to drop out of the 2009/10 Skylight season, because of either being without insurance or just trying to pay next month's rent, a little more at ease.
The past month has been eating away at me. I don’t agree with what is being done to this theatre company. But come the start of the season, I have to walk through the doors if I want to live, eat and sleep.
I have to leave behind all the problems I may have with the move Skylight is making, and walk through that door and try and make the best of it. Try to make a living. Try to smile and not cry. I think there are a lot of people in my shoes who don’t know if they should follow the crowd, or follow their wallet.
I’ll be walking into and working along side a company I no longer understand. Some of the people may be the same old folks I’ve known for years, but the family will be broken in heart and soul.
I just hope and pray that someday the Skylight Opera Theatre can be the place everyone can call home....again. Where we can share our laughs and our tears, our thoughts and our dreams. I don’t know when that will be. That is up to the powers that be.